tick, tock, tick, tock
i have been made very aware over the past couple of months that, my biological clock is beginning to tick very loudly. it seems as if every one that i know is having babies.
as i sit here and think about it all, i become overwhelmed with emotion. i have been blessed with the best man on the face of the earth…but because of what he refers to as me not being ready….i really feel that it is he that is not ready. believe me, i’ve been ready. i think that every female that has ever walked the face of this earth was born ready to marry and have children.
i just sit here and think that i’ll be twenty-one this year. i’ve been dating the man of my dreams for a year now, and i’m scared that we haven’t gotten any where. however, at the same time…i feel as if the question i have been waiting to hear is just right around the corner.
for example, the other night the statement was made that….money was not the reason he hadn’t proposed. so my immediate question is…WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU WAITING FOR?!?!?!?!!!! have i not proved my love to you? have i not given you a reason to make me yours, now and forever? what is it?
all i want is to come home to him. sit on the couch and talk. cook him dinner. iron his clothes. do his laundry. take care of him. have his children. take care of his children. be everything and more for him. it’s driving me insane.
i want our forever to start right NOW!!!!!! but nothing.
with every day that passes, the ticking gets louder. Louder. LOuder. LOUder. LOUDer. LOUDEr. and LOUDER!!!!! it’s killing me.
what do i do to pass the time.
what do i do to make the ticking subside in some way.
better yet, how do i get him to move faster?
if i could just scream. cry. die…you name it. i am ready to self destruct. and what do i still hear in my head?
tick, tock, tick, tock…..
